I didn’t feel like praying this week.
Is it safe for me to admit that? I mean I’m the Prayer and Spiritual Life Catalyst for the EFCC and also serve on the staff of the largest Free Church in Canada. I hope my two earthly bosses don’t read this; they might be less forgiving of my lapse than my heavenly “boss.”
I’ve got excuses of course. I came back from four days away from the office to a “to-do” list that I had little time for. On top of the normal I had to prepare to preach to my “Traditions” congregation and then three of my “flock” died and I had to conduct their funerals. I was drained in every conceivable way.
I did pray, by the way, even though I didn’t feel like doing it; not masterpieces to share with others but more like squawks of desperation and cries for help. Those prayers weren’t deep experiences of fellowship with God, but God heard and calmed my anguished spirit and enabled me to serve. God’s not looking for masterpieces just honest and vulnerable conversation.
“In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans.” (Romans 8:26, NIV, 2011) Good to know!
Sometimes you don’t feel like praying. That’s OK! Pray anyway!